Day 8 - Much of nothing

Writer's block.  Some days it drives me batty when I have ideas in my head and just don't know where to go with them.  

So, I've had a pretty good month mood wise.  I went through a major depression in Nov and Dec but it lightened up and I've been feeling better for about a month now.  Part of it was due to a medication change.  This past month it's been easier to focus and not feeling very down.  Unfortunately, it never lasts.  I'm a little down this weekend, not major depression but down.  Sometimes I feel like I drive people crazy.  That I annoy people.  Ok, I probably do at times.  

It's sad that I don't feel like writing at the moment.  I'm currently fighting with the negative thoughts and emotions in my head so if you have suggestions of how to change that, let me know.  

Don't worry, this is much of nothing today. 

Day 7 - 100 Day challenge

What is my 100 day challenge?  

I've challenged myself to blogging 100 days during 2015.  I knew from the start that it would not be 100 days in a row, which is just fine. 

So, I really want to finish one of the fanfics that I'm working on but just haven't been able to get past one point.  I know once I'm past it the rest will roll out.  Sometimes it feels like forever before I can get back to it.  When I have the time, I don't have the words and when I have the words I don't have the time.  

Yes, this is a boring one... sorry. 

Day 6

Today's thoughts... 

More lyrics for you to think about.  This is from the Barlow Girl song I Need You To Love Me.  

Why? Why are You still here with me?
Didnt You see what Ive done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
Yeah, but its here I see the truth
I dont deserve You

But I need You to love me
And I, I wont keep my heart from You this time
And Ill stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

And I need You to love me
And I, I wont keep my heart from You this time
And Ill stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have, yeah, yeah

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been, oh-oh

And I need You to love me, yeah
I need You to love me, yeah

And Ill stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
Somehow deserve what I already have

I need You to love me, yeah
I need you to

 Oh oh oh oh eo, oh oh oh oh eo
Oh oh oh oh eo, oh oh oh oh eo

 Love me, love me, yah

So, dig into these words.  This writer, most likely one of the Barlow Girls, is talking to God. The question is asked, why would God still love you when you make mistakes.  God always sees everything you do, knows what you think and even what your dreams are.  He allows us to make mistakes, allows us to make our own choices and no matter what the outcome of our decisions he still loves us.  Isn't that so amazing?  

So, look into his words in the Bible.  He's written stories about people like you and me that you couldn't believe.  

Day 5

I'm so tired today!  Woke up feeling like I hadn't slept at all.  I was hoping to go to sleep early tonight, but that's not happening.  My I.T. Guy had to work late, which means he won't be on the regular train. So, he's finally on a train and due to the cold it's running about 25 mins late.  So, I'll get home from the train about 9:30.  It would be fine if I didn't have to pick up my Artist from work.  The poor girl has had the flu since Friday and is finally able to go to work, but her car wouldn't start.  That of course is due to the cold.  So, I took her to work when I got home from work. I'll pick her up at 11:30 when she gets off.  So, maybe in bed by midnight.  Morning alarm will go off about 5:30.  

The cold is just crazy!  It's 6°F, which makes the windchill at -13°F!  The windchill is supposed to get down to -35°F!   No school tomorrow.

Well, I know it's quick but I need to start my car so I can get to the train on time. 

Day 4

Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment."  Matt 22:37-38 

This is the most important thing that God wants of us.  I think many people aren't aware of this.  God should be the most important thing in our lives.  The most important person.  The most important God. 

How do we show Him we love him?  One thing is by how we live.  I try to live the way God describes in the Bible.  Loving, honest, peaceful, patience, forgiving, etc.  Some days it's difficult to be these things, some days it's easy. 

This weekend has busy for me, I've been working on completing some of the things I needed to get done around the house.  Still have plenty to do, but I expect that. 

So, this is a quick and short blog day, I'm sure no one's going to complain about it. 

Day 3

I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy.  Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.     Psalm 116: 1-2

Years ago I cried out to God for help. He listened and came to my aid.  It's because of him that I have come so far in my life.  I have learned to accept the issues I deal with, that everything that comes my way I can get through as long as I remember that God is with me. 

Today I spent putting drapes up in my house.  My wrist is sore from the work, using the screwdriver is a bear sometimes, but I got them up and done.  I have a few paint touch-ups still but the walls are 90% done.  I can't wait to decorate them.  I've been going through my photos trying to decide which ones I'll print, frame and hang on my walls.  Some are just beautiful. 

I know this isn't much today, probably because I just don't know what to write. One of those "writer's block" days of mine.

We're due for snow this week. I'm so not looking forward to this!  I totally hate driving in the snow.  

Day 2

"but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.  they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run...  Isaiah 40:31

For the first day of the year I look at the previous year.  Been a busy one!  I've spent over half the year working on house projects and am not even close to being done.  We've lived in our house for 15 years and this is the first time we've painted the first floor.  It took me about 2 months to paint, but about 2 months prior to do wall repairs and prep to paint.  We have plenty to keep us busy and will have more to do as this year is beginning. It'll get there. 

As for me, I went from part time to full time employment.  It's a positive thing, but I know I will have some issues with it.  It'll be a learning experience.  I've been lucky enough not to have to work full time for the past 3 years, not it's a new adventure.  

That's my positive thoughts for today.  It's a struggle to stay positive but I keep plugging away.